At the top of my list of people who have taught, inspired and opened doors for me is Caroline Myss. Caroline began as writer (continues) and publisher and then discovered her ability as a medical intuitive. Now Caroline primarily teaches. Caroline is a mystic. http://www.myss.com
This is not a tribute to Caroline Myss though I am looking forward so much to seeing her again. She will be in Boston this November and my ticket is on the white board in front of me. There will be gazzilions of people and auditorium seating only but her energy is huge and mine is open to hers so much that I can sit farthest away and feel it. Okay, reminder, this is not about Caroline Myss.
It is about Truth. And funny that word has been jumping around in me all week as I ponder the actions of someone else and my re-actions and if they come from fear and ego won’t have Truth either.
Then Caroline came forward with an email on Truth. Of course. When you step in to who you are and you ask the universe to open your eyes and provide guidance it does not just come in the form of heavenly angels whispering in your ear at night.
It can come electronically in an email from someone you already admire or someone you never heard of before. You just have to have your eyes and ears open. The universe is no fool and computers, websites and emails are rudimentary tools in their eyes.
Caroline has provided me with what I need to look at around this issue that has got my ego in a twist this week. I don’t know how it will effect my actions yet but I do know that if I pray the outcome will be better than if I do not.
Here is her message.
TRUTH AS THE PULSE OF GOD
Stand in the power of this prayer . . .
“How will you come to me, Lord? How will I know you? How will I recognize you? I know you will come for me. You will slip into my being, perhaps in the middle of the night while I sleep. Maybe You will come for me when I am not looking for You, when I am distracted, staring into an oncoming storm, fearing my immortality.
Or maybe You will come to me in the midst of a lie that pours out of my mouth effortlessly. You will let me know You are listening as I listen to myself say something that is not true as easily as if I were giving the time of day. I tell myself that my lies are insignificant, that they don’t matter. How do I know what matters, what is significant? What if I am being tested? Observed? Did you know I put my conscience to sleep years ago? Maybe that’s how You will come to me – You will awaken my conscience like a sleeping dragon, one day, when I am weakened by disease, or fear, or loneliness, and I will be forced to face the truth that I fear You. I fear Truth. You are Truth itself, and I feel that power rumble like an earthquake through my being each time my eyes look into the eyes of another human being.
One word of Truth exchanged through the eyes of another is enough to bond two human beings for eternity, the power of a sacred union. No wonder we fear Truth. No wonder we fear You. How will you come to me, Lord? You will come through Truth. You will make me need You and I will come searching. You will make me shed my skin, my illusions, my weaknesses, like boils ready to burst on my burning flesh. And then, when I am broken, too weak to deceive even myself, there You will be, already resurrecting my soul. Somehow, Lord, I found this Truth already lodged in my heart. You’ve already come for me.”
In Caroline’s email she asks, actually Caroline tells us to turn off the distractions we are using at the moment and contemplate these questions.
1. What is Truth for you? Do you think about “truth” as something that is just the “opposite of lying,” or does Truth for you also have cosmic, mystical proportions?
2. Do you struggle with speaking the truth? Do you allow yourself to lie? A little? A lot? Daily? And let me make this easy for you: A lie means you are not telling the TRUTH. There’s no qualifier here.
3. Do you assume people lie? We live in a society in which lying is more acceptable than speaking the truth. For example, we assume that our politicians are liars, that financial and corporate cartels are liars – and guess what? We don’t care! We have grown so accustomed to a culture of lies that we have grown numb to it. So the question is, “Why have YOU personally chosen to become numb to this culture of lies?” And the more significant question, “How much influence has this dark culture of lies had upon the breakdown of your personal integrity?” Mind you, it may not have had any influence or it may have inspired you to become a Whistleblower, a person sick to death of all the lies in this society. Or you may have just caved in and drunk the kool-aid, deciding that if everyone else is doing it, saying things that aren’t true and getting away with it, what the hell.
4. When people call me for help because their health or their life is in crisis, they never, ever bring up Truth as their core point of crisis. But it always is. What Truths are you personally wrestling with? Asked differently, “What secrets have become too painful or heavy to carry?”
I am interrupted now by the sound of mail dropping into my mail box and I go to retrieve it. It is quite nice out this morning with the promise of changing weather and the hope that it will not get as hot as reported.
Truth is I have been listening to the mail truck coming up the hill, making the couple of stops and then turning at the top and coming my way. I thought it passed my house without stopping. As I cut and pasted Caroline’s words and contemplated my own; the Truth was in the mail delivery that I was listening to in the background.
I was thinking about if the item I was waiting for arrived what would my reaction be? If it was not how would I handle that. Truth is if it arrived or not should have no bearing on my Truth. Or so we are taught. It goes back to what the Truth is.
Truth is more than making a decision and not wavering. Truth is more than answering a question or stating a point that is completely factual. It is more than not telling tales, making up stories about others, hiding facts or creating drama where it does not exist.
Truth is looking at why. Truth is seeing, not just knowing that if that piece of paper was not in my mailbox that it would in my opinion allow me to act with words and certainly thoughts in a certain way. Really! Whose truth is that? Mine. Well not so fast. If we, alone on our own define what the truth is we are in big trouble. But it is exactly what we do.
We decide what is true and we live and die by it. We decide what is true and measure every step we take and we condone and condemn others and ourselves by what we decide.
Truth is nothing like that. We think It is based on how we define it but you know how that goes when we (humans) decide what is we are always far off the mark because of our ….. well I could make a huge list of what prompts our decisions, rules and definitions but I can only really come up with one. Truth is all about Fear.
Truth is not getting that piece of paper when I should have brought up fear around being labeled as something I wouldn’t agree with or much like. It meant someone, in my human opinion, was using and abusing power. And certainly was not being truthful with words. Truth is what happened on the other end of this piece of paper is not only not my business it has nothing to do with my Truth. But in protecting my self (from my own fears) I could let my ego take charge. It is a powerful force this ego of mine and I could stand behind it justified and honor bound and go to the mat for it. I could call that my Truth.
What happens when I open the mailbox and see what is there is what my Truth is; it is not on a mat. Truth is knowing that if I am touched either way by what is or is not there I own it. Truth is not about having no reaction, it is not about having no feeling in my gut or in my heart. It is about owning it. When I reach in and find it is not there and then feel angst coming up or feel nothing that I call “don’t care” the truth is owning both. If I carry the “what the heck is going on here” thoughts with me all day, truth is owning that. Truth is not saying it is caused by or belongs to someone else but owning that I think that.
Truth is an amazing tool. Without it Fear would do us in. Truth is we should not fear Truth. We should use Truth more often and know that the universe will let us know when we get it right. We will feel and it will feel great.
The piece of paper was not in the mailbox. Truth is that will not change or impact my day but if it did, well the day has not happened yet so if it does, I own it. I will endeavor to not judge my self whichever way it goes. And if (when) I do judge my self I will endeavor to be kind. Knowing that Truth alone answers every question that may come up makes it all right with the world on my end of the mail route. If my ego slips in with a delivery of fears I will pray for them to be rerouted quickly.
Knowing that Truth and God go hand in hand and are waiting for me on the Front Porch to enjoy the day makes it all so very good.
Thank you Caroline Myss for sending true words and wonder filled prayers to use in my conversations with God, the universe, on the Front Porch today.